The Smoke

Well, if you've heard by now, N.C. and a part of Suffolk, VA. are burning.
The smoke is so bad from these two fires that we can smell it at the beach.
The sky is filled with a haze and the smell chokes you. Not only is it hot and
then we have the smoke from the fires.
If you walk from outside to inside it comes right into the house.
I went out a little bit ago and could still smell it at 8:30 p.m.
They say that the only thing that will help us is some rain.
So, I sat down to enjoy looking at my flowers and the wind picked
up and a cool breeze started blowing. In the distant faint air you
could smell the rain. Oh, only if it would rain. We desperately need it.
Not to mention that it'd help with the fires and clear some of the smoke
out of the air.
It is so bad you can't even ride with your car windows down or cracked.
I could smell it at 7 a.m. when I went out to check out the sky and weather.
It's so bad it burns your eyes, even in your house.
Please bring on the rain...........
We need some relief.............

ARMY WIVES

Does anyone out there watch the show, "ARMY WIVES."

Well, since I don't have Grey's Anatomy or Desperate Housewives, this is my new "soap" show.

Season 2 has started out so emotional.

If anyone watches it, I'd love to hear from you and what you think about the show.

Hope to hear from ya soon.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
to all the dads and step-dads out there.
I'm lucky to say I have a wonderful daddy
and a father-in-law.
I wish they lived closer so that I could do
something for them.
But it will have to be a phone, since my
dad lives in GA. and my father-in-law
lives in AL.
So later they will get a phone call.
And so will my hubby, he's a step-father
and not to mention daddy to the cats
that we have.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE WONDERFUL
DADS OUT THERE!!!!

HOT! HOT! HOT!

It has been in the upper 90's here with the heat index it feels like the triple digits.
And not to mention that gas hit $3.93 today. OMG!!!WTF!!!!!
Seriously, I'm gonna be working just to put gas in my car. This is getting out of control.
And not to say, I've had a sore, itchy, scratchy throat for almost a week now. So I got an antibiotic. No it's not strep. I thought it was may my sinuses but I don't have headache or runny nose. So I thought an antibiotic would kill anything that is going on.
I come home from work and the daughter wants to give me grief. Crap is more like it. First, she made a cake, and the kitchen was semi clean. But then she cooked dinner and I told her I wasn't feeling well. Well, she says, "SINCE I COOKED YOU HAVE TO CLEAN THE KITCHEN." That is OUR rule in the house, even when BBW is home. Well, he almost always has to clean the kitchen, come on honey you rarely cook. So I started cleaning and all of the suddenly, she says to me, YOU'RE IN BAD MOOD.
THAT IS SOMETHING I HEARD FROM MY EX-HUSBAND FOR 20 YEARS. IF YOU TELL ME I'M IN A BAD MOOD THEN I'M GONNA BE IN ONE.
So left went to go see this boy she works with.
I cleaned the kitchen and then proceed to vacuum the upstairs and downstairs too.
She thinks now that she has a full time job she doesn't have to do anything.
Okay, she does work 5 days a week but only works 5-7 hours a day not 9 or 10 hours a day.
She 17 yrs. old and thinks she's 25 yrs. old.
To me, boys are so much easier at least mine was.

Well off to the sofa with some hot tea with honey.
More later.......................

Errin

My youngest daughter just got new contacts. The colored ones, they are blue.

Here are some pics of her. I still think she looks BEAUTIFUL AND AWESOME.

I think so anyway. They also have a pet ferret.

She will be 16 yrs. old in Aug. That's my babygirl.

HE CALLS TO ME.............

For my Hubby

He Calls To Me

He calls to me across the miles
Night winds carry his whispers
They float on the breeze and through my windows
Falling gently upon my ears
- Hush -
I hear him now.
He calls to me from the heavens
Glittering stars cannot compare to the sparkle of his eyes
When he looks at me,
I am consumed by the fireI see him now.
He calls to me through my dreams
Dancing together in the shadows of my sleep
Where we laugh and love once againI am in his armsI feel him now.
He calls to meEvery moment of every day
Distance couldn't keep us apart
When destiny drew us together
I'll hold him for eternity
As long as he keeps calling.

WONDERFUL WED.

I took half a day today. Oh what a day!! Tuesday was my daughter's 17th b-day, so I took her shopping today at the mall for her birthday.
Well, $300.00 later, I told her I better be able to borrow some of the clothes we bought her. She said "No problem". She really appreciate that her step father and I spent money on her.
But to be honeset, she went into the stores that she wanted to shop in and she got quite a few bargins. That's my girl.
Then I get a phone call frim my hubby whom tells me that I WON'T SEE HIM UNTIL SEPT.
YEAH!!!!!!
SO, he decided that in Aug. (which is the month of my b-day), I'd fly to Washington to see him.
But I need to know for sure when so I can put in my request for vacation time off.
Which, probably won't be a problem since my doctor is going on vacation the first 3 weeks of Aug.
Oh well, we've been apart for about 6mths. before. But this time it's different, he's in the same country not half way around the world.
I'd like to go to Washington. I've never been there.
Well, I need to go iron some pants, I have a dinner tomorrow at Ruth Chris'. One of the doctors I work with is speaking. Hey, it's free food and wine. I can't pass that up. Plus I've never eaten at Ruth Chris' so I can go and test it out.

Have a good night. Talk to everyone later.

It's almost FRIDAY!!!!!!YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A PRAYER

This is one of the best prayers I think I have ever rea d PRAY THIS
EVEN IF YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE IT!! IT WILL ONLY TAKE A MINUTE.
I started not to do this, but as I read it....
I understood God to say, 'You need a miracle tomorrow.... So here it goes... Prov. 29:25...
You never know when God is going to bless you!! Good things happen when you least expect them to !!!
Dear Lord, I thank You for this day, I thank You for my being ableto see and to hear this morning.I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding>God.You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me.
Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that
was not pleasing to you.I ask now for Your forgiveness.
Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this Day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.
Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.
Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over.
And give the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits. I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart.
Continue to use me to do Your will.
Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.
I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way.I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those that will delete this without sharing it with others. I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank you that I believe that God changes people and God change things.I pray for all my sisters and brothers. I pray for each and every family member in their households.
I pray for peace, love, and joy in their homes. I pray that they are out of debt and all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it. If you prayed this prayer, change the number in the subject box before forwarding the message so people can See how many people have done so.
God Bless You!!!!!
Just repeat this phrase and see how God moves!! God, I love you and I need you.
Come into my heart, please.Amen.

MY THEME SONG

Oh, well were do I begin.
I have a new theme song for my LIFE. It's a song by Rodney Atkins, "IF YOUR GOING THROUGH HELL".
I heard the song and thought.....
that is my life right now. Below are the lyrics to the song. And right now I feel like I'm going through hell.
If You're Going Through Hell Rodney AtkinsSam Tate, Annie Tate and Dave BergWell,
you know those times when you feel likeThere's a sign there on your back.Says: "I don't mind if you kick me,Seems like everybody has."Things go from bad to worse.You think they can't get worse than that an' then they do.You step off the straight an' narrow,An' you don't know where you are.Use the needle of your compass,To sew up your broken heart.Ask directions from a genie,In a bottle of Jim Beam an' she lies to you.Well, that's when you learn the truth.If you're goin' through hell,Keep on goin'.Don't slow down,If you're scared don't show it.You might get out,'Fore the devil even knows you're there.Well, I've been deep down in that darkness,I been down to my last match.Felt a hundred different demons,Breathin' fire down my back.An' I knew that if I stumbled,I'd fall right into the trap that they were layin', yeah.But the good news is there's angels,Everywhere out on the street.Holdin' out a hand,To pull you back up on your feet.The one's that you been draggin' so long,You're on your knees; you might as well be prayin'.Guess what I'm sayin',If you're goin' through hell,Keep on goin'.Don't slow down,If you're scared don't show it.You might get out,'Fore the devil even knows you're there.Yeah, if you're goin' through hell,Keep on movin'.Face that fire,Walk right through it.You might get out,'Fore the devil even knows you're there.Oooh.If you're goin' through hell,Keep on goin'.Don't slow down,If you're scared don't show it.You might get out,'Fore the devil even knows you're there.Yeah, if you're goin' through hell,Keep on movin'.Face that fire,Walk right through it.You might get out,'Fore the devil even knows you're there.Yeah, you might get out,'Fore the devil even knows you're there.Yeah.Ooh, ooh ooh.Oh.

WHAT YOUR BIRTHDATE MEANS?

Your Birthdate: August 25


Calm and understated, you struggle to express your love with words.
Over time, your partner learns to recognize your passion by the actions you take.
You're good at wooing someone slowly, without them even realizing it!
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2
You are most compatible with people born on the 7th, 16th, and 25th of The month.
http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanforyourlovelifequiz

FOR BBW

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY!!!!

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU.............

3 day weekend

Okay, I enjoyed having 3 days off. But going back to work today was like a Mon. and Fri. rolled into one. I was very busy all day.
I don't know if I'm MORE exhausted from the weekend or from working today.
I think today should've been a mental health day for everyone.
Okay it sounded nice.
But I also learned that one of the girls I work with and whom I like alot is leaving. Next month. She's moving to Korea. Her husbands job is relocating. I'm gonna miss her. I really like and we get along so well.

And let's not forget, that BBW is still in CO. He was sick yesterday and missed work. I hope he's feeling better. Tomorrow(WED.) is his BIRTHDAY!!!!!
Yeah, and he won't be home for it.
That's okay honey, you'll get your birthday sex when you come home.
And alot more too. LOL!!!!

Okay, gonna go hit the sofa and watch some t.v. for now.
Hope everyone had a good and safe Memorial Day weekend.

A Good Movie

I was sitting home on a Sunday with nothing to do. My daughter was at work so I decided to rent a movie.
I watched "P.S. I LOVE YOU".
Oh it was such a good, emotional movie. I really needed that movie. I cried off and on through the whole movie. It's a really good tear jerker.
Since everything that has happened to me this past week, I needed a GOOD CRY!
I think you should watch it.
If you do let me know what you think.

DRIFTING

I sometimes find I'm drifting

Through this life without effect;

I often wonder if I'm trulyWorth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,

To try to understand,

The many trials that I have known,

The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,So confident and strong;

Yet when I am alone,

I questionJust where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,

To analyze and guess,

To scrutinize, investigateMy life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be

Some meaning to this life,Some way to make a difference,

Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?

Some agenda to be found?

A greater purpose waitingIf I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,

Always slightly out of sight;

A hazy vision out of reach,

Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarityTo what awaits me there,

And yet this weak illusion

Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,

To focus through the haze,

Just serves to add more questions,

Through my endless, tired gaze.Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,

To understand it all,

For can we ever truly know

Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,Just adds upon the next,

But in the end, will I find truth ..................................

Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harderThan it has to be sometimes,

But will my searching bring to meMy meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,

And confused as I feel now,

While questions bring no solitude,

To this, my wrinkled brow.

Dance of Terror

Window panes come crashing down
Amidst the tears and pain
Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away
Up above through twilightShadows cast across the floor
Reflections of the past
Trembling thoughts of one
Dwelling deep within the soul
A mystical sense of reality
Captured by the crazeAll in bewilderment
Of the shock in the wave
Creatures of the dimness
Chattering amongst the green
Everything slows in stillness
What is this we see?

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

I AM BEING TESTED????

Well today started off like another "work day". I fought traffic to get to work, as usual; but not that bad this morning. I knew it was going to be a "short" day for me cause I asked for half the day off.
I was thrilled about that. So I got some things done at work that I needed to do so I wouldn't have to worry about doing it tomorrow.
I leave work. Ok, a little traffic at 1 p.m. Not as bad as it would be if I left at 5 p.m.
Driving home, listening to the radio- the usual.
Pull into my parking spot at home ............and oh no................the brake pedal went ALL THE WAY TO THE FLOOR. I backed up a little, still all the way to the floor and the same as I pulled forward. So, I looked underneath the car and as I pushed on the brake pedal, I noticed something leaking.
GREAT!!!!! NO BRAKES!!!!!!!!
Thank God that nothing happened on the way home driving the highway. I looked up to the sky and said, "THANK YOU GOD FOR LOOKING OUT FOR ME, AND MY MOM".
Thank goodness I have another car to drive.
Well, you see not long ago the a/c compressor went out on the Ford. Set us back $1,000.00. Ok, that is fixed. Then not too long ago the a/c and heat in the house went out. Ok. Got a friend to look at it and he thinks he may be able to fix it. After someone else said it was the fan and it would be roughly $400.00. I'll take no heat or air right now.
Even though it's been hot during the day, we're dealing with it.
So I figured that after all this is happening to me, that someone is "testing" me.
Oh, I stayed calm and smiled and looked to the sky.
Who else would be looking out for me and testing me at the same time? The man above.
The universe can play with you or be with you. I'm staying positive and I will get the car fixed in due time along with the a/c in the house.
I have learned you don't mess with God or the universe.
But on another note, my daughter got her drivers license. (that's messed up, that is the universe definitely messing with me) LOL!!!! Oh they grow up fast. My son will be 23 yrs. old on the 20th of this month.
So all of this has been either a string of bad luck or I am being tested.
Either way, I'm gonna keep a smile on and keep on going.

HAPPY HUMP DAY!!!!!!

SO TRUE

THIS IS OH SO TRUE, WITH THE GAS PRICES GOING UP AND DOWN.

WEIRD WEATHER IN VA.

Okay it's the normal Monday. It's rainy and overcast. The ride to work wasn't bad.
I had a busy "MONDAY" today. Which always makes the time go by faster. Until about
3 p.m. I'm listening to the radio and the weather and the traffic. See they are replacing
all the windows in our building so I now have a piece of plywood up. So I didn't really
pay attention to the weather.
So the emergency broadcast center is issusing a "tornado warning and watch". Okay. It's
not near here. I work in Portsmouth and come to find out the tornado touched down in
Suffolk, which isn't that far. And not to mention we have an office there. So they call and
say the lights are out. The tornado hit Obici Hospital. So I get the word we can leave a
few minutes early.
Oh, wait, I can't. I have a patient that I'm trying to help over the phone. They had just had
their first cycle of chemo and wasn't doing well. So I finished up..........and it was 5 p.m.
Come to find, a tornado had touched down in Portsmouth. WOW!!!!!!!!
So on my way home the daughter calls and tells me to hurry home. Okay,
I have tunnel traffic and there is a tornado warning out. YEAH RIGHT..
Traffic was fine on my way home. And thank God he was looking out for me.
As I turn into the road to the house, it starts to pour rain and the clouds were
black and the wind was howling. I run into the house, quickly find the daughter,
laying in her bed and then proceed to watch the evening news.

Come to find out this is the worst tornado weather anyone has seen in this area
for at least 25 years. They counted at least 5 tornado's had touched down.
I was born and raised in Ga. and tornado's were normal and in TX. too.
I was in a tornado when I was in elementary school. So I know first hand
how scary they are. Seeing the glass break right in front of your eyes, hail hitting
the roof, and the sound of a freight train in your ears.

I'm just glad I made it home. It's mostly raining now with gusty winds.
Well, at least hitting the sunlight window sounds like rain.....

This is some pretty wacky weather for the beach area. I can now say I've
seen it all here in Va. I mean last year in April, it snowed and now the last
part of April, tornado's.

Who knows what we'll see next..............................

Sunday relaxing........

Ok, I don't really sleep in on Sun. so I was up at 7:30a.m. today. I thought I'd go sit outside and enjoy my coffee and the cool breeze that was blowing. Well, that breeze got a little too cold. But I sat outside anyway.
Then I got a wild hair and started cleaning the bathroom. I scrubbed the baseboards and mopped the floor. I even cleaned the fan exhaust too. Then vaccumed upstairs. After cleaning out the darn vaccum cleaner....again. Everytime I go to use it, I have to dig the cat hair out of the darn thing.(I'm thinking of SHAVING the cat, ok just triming her coat down.)
Then my daughter and I did "YOGA". The first time I've done it. And let me tell you what, I feel GREAT. It really felt good. Stretching, breathing and relaxing. I feel as if a calmness has swept over me. I'm also a little sore, stretching will do that if your not use to it.
So I think in the mornings before work I'm gonna do yoga or maybe when I get home to help relax me.
I've started laying in the tanning bed too and I'm starting to get a pretty good tan and now I want to tone and firm up. Bathing suit weather is coming and I want to look good.
So now I'm gonna work on the abs. I weigh roughly about 105-107 lbs, but I want to flatten and tone my belly, not that I have a huge belly;and tone and tighten the thighs and buns.
So from now until the end of May I'm gonna really work on that.
So wish me luck.
Now it's time to get out the ab lounge and start on the rest of my body.
Plus walking, for 30 mins. a day adds 2 hours to your life. Right now I can use all the help I can get.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend.